How could the One who loves me and is the Creator of life let this happen? It felt mean and cruel. The anger was so intense, it was literally consuming me. Yet, I realized that the only One who could help me was the One whom I was angry with! I knew if I did not turn to Him, the anger would fester into a bitter and calloused heart. So, albeit begrudgingly, I honestly and transparently confessed my anger to God. He already knew the pain of my heart anyway, but verbalizing the raw, unfiltered emotion before the Lord was a vital and crucial turning point for me. I made a volitional decision to release the anger and relinquish it to Him. Trust me, it was not a pretty scene. There was a lot of "ugly crying" and it was not a one time event. Daily I went before the Lord with the overwhelming grief and anger. Each time I cried out to God, I opened my heart to receive His love, healing, and peace. I cannot pinpoint the exact day, date, or time--but God did something miraculous. He healed my heart, just as His Word promises. One day, the pain was just gone. The hurt was gone. The anger was gone. I looked for them, I felt for them. They were gone.
Peace and hope had hit my heart.
While every woman's experience is unique and different, I guarantee you that by God's grace and enduring love, you will overcome as you pursue Him.
Prayer
Father, in the name of Jesus, I pray for every woman who may have suffered miscarriage. As the omniscient God, you know her heart. You know the disappointment, the pain, the sadness, the brokenness, the anger. I pray that you would give her the grace to release the cares of her heart to you. I pray that an exchange would be made--that as she releases it all to you, that you would fill her heart with your peace, hope, love, and courage. Thank you for your care and compassion. Thank you for your healing virtue that is bringing wellness and restoration to her soul. May your heavenly host surround her. Hide her under the shadow of your wing. Amen and so be it according to your word.
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